As another year has come to an end, I wanted to write a more personal type of post. As I have never really been one to make New Year’s resolutions and actually stick to them, I figure once again, if I write it all down and share it with you guys it might actually force me to stick with it!
Let’s start off by saying – 2018, what the hell was that!?
I began the year off in a house with my closest friends, turned 25, travelled to Thailand and began studying Youth Work. As the year started flying by, I found that I wasn’t coping well with my anxiety and depression. I moved house, I lost my passion for the job I had been doing for the past 2 and a bit years and I wasn’t enjoying life at all. After months and months of negative thoughts, I decided it was finally time to do something about it. After having a difficult conversation with my Mum and seeing my psychologist, I can happily say that I am doing so much better. Just know that you are never alone! If you are suffering, please reach out to someone in your life, even if that someone is me!
I am proud of so many things I have accomplished this year. I have now completed my Youth Work certificate, I resigned from my job in hopes of following a path that has sparked something within me, I traveled outside of the country (which I never thought I would be able to do with my anxiety) and I made so many new amazing friends, just to name a few. Although I lost some people along the way, and I had my moments of self-doubt and self-hatred, I can say that I am ending the year on a much happier note!
I set myself some goals for 2018, which I had posted in a blog at the start of the year. My first goal was to start being healthier by eating right and getting back into exercising. I have not stuck to this goal at all, but I feel like I am finally well enough that it is something I am really going to focus on in 2019. Another goal I set was to get back to doing things that I love and things that make me happy. Starting this blog was definitely the best thing I have ever done. I love writing and I love makeup. So to be able to do both together is amazing and it honestly does make me so happy.
Now for my 2019 goals!
#1 – Once again, I want to start eating healthier and getting back into exercising. I want to do this not only for my mental health but so I can hopefully get a bit more confident within myself again.
#2 – Find a new job. This one is pretty straightforward. I quit my job as I was no longer loving what I was doing. However, through studying in 2018, I found something that I am super passionate about. So, I am hoping that I can focus on gaining employment through that. Fingers crossed for me guys!
#3 – I want to continue working hard on myself and practice good self-care. This means working on my thoughts and negative ways of thinking. I am my own worst enemy and honestly, I have said all the negative things in the world to myself. I have also decided to let go of any negativity that I can see within my life. Although this has been super hard for me, I need to be selfish. There is no point fighting for people to be in my life who don’t want to be there. 2019 is my year for learning to love myself and accepting the love I deserve. ‘If you don’t love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen!’ (Love me some RuPaul!)
#4 – I don’t want to focus too much on the numbers in regards to my blog and Instagram (which is makeupby.emmakate in case you were wondering). However, I still want to grow. My goal is to continue the good thing I have going with this blog and post at least once a week. For Instagram, I want to be more creative and try new thing when it comes to makeup.
#5 – Finally, I want to continue pushing myself to do things I wouldn’t usually do. I want to adventure to different places, be open to meeting new people, doing things that the old Emma would always say ‘no way’ to doing.
Goodbye 2018. You’ve been a true test. Hello, 2019. I can not wait to smash you!
What are some of your New Years resolutions? Leave me a comment and let me know so we can smash some goals together!
That’s all for now Beauties!